WORKING THROUGH MY FIRST PANIC ATTACK

APRIL 19, 2018

Mannnnn oh mannn you guys. 

This is something that I definitely never thought I'd be writing about. I honestly didn't know if I was going to be able to write about it at all because the thought of it would start to speed up my heart rate but it's been about a week now since it happened and I think I'm feeling better...or at least good enough to talk about it. HA, we'll see if I can get through this post....

So have any of you ever had a panic attack before?

I never had. I've had anxiety here and there but not to the point where it was debilitating. Panic attacks and anxiety attacks are apparently different so to jump from having a little anxiety every now and then to having a full blown panic attack was terrifying. 

So as a lot of you know - over the last few months, my schedule has been really insane. Waking up at 5:30 am 5-6 days out of the week, working late nights anywhere from 3-5 nights a week and then going to school, working out, and health coaching in between. 

MAY 3, 2018

Haha, sooo apparently I wasn't ready to write about it. I got that far before I started to feel my chest getting tight and I had to get out of the house. Since my panic attack happened while I was home alone, I couldn't STAND to be home alone. It happened at night though so I thought I could deal with being alone in the middle of the day which was when I was writing that last post. 

My boyfriend mentioned that he was going to go run some errands which I figured would be fine, but as I heard him getting ready and getting closer to leaving, I started to get more and more tense sooooo here we are 3 weeks later. 

BUT, GOOD NEWS! 

I'm currently home alone now and I'm A OKAY. 

I still wanted to come back to this post though because when I started talking about it on Insta - I got a lot of feedback from you guys talking about how you've had them before and you were happy that someone was talking about it. 

I was so surprised to find that SO many people around me that I talk to on a regular basis have had them too! It was really comforting for me during that time because after the attack, I honestly felt so scared because I had experienced the feeling of actually losing my mind. 

So if you've never had a panic attack before, I think it's important to know about what can trigger it, and what may happen during the attack. 

BEFORE PANIC ATTACK (THURSDAY)

For me, I was severely sleep deprived. BUT silly me wanted to get work done so I had a double shot of espresso with a teaspoon of a new product this company sent me. The nickname for the product is "dopamine bean" and the serving size was a 1/4 of a teaspoon. I thought it was like any other product I have - something that would just give me some energy so I had some, but I had a teaspoon. No biggie I thought. 

I think like 45 minutes went by before it was 8:30pm and I was STILL friggin EXHAUSTED. That was when I said screw this and got ready for bed. 

I laid in bed, home alone, and tried to fall asleep. I couldn't get comfortable, I couldn't relax my mind and I kept feeling hot and then cold. So I turned on a meditation that I typically LOVE but it was annoying me SO bad. 

UGH. WHAT THE HELL, I thought. 

Then I figured I would take a little hit from this weed pen that a friend gave me. I typically can't smoke because it makes me paranoid but I had had this one before and it was very helpful in times that I couldn't fall asleep. 

So, I hit that twice really quick and laid back down. I think maybe one minute passed before the combination of the coffee, dopamine bean, weed and sleep deprivation hit me and I JOLTED up in fear that I was in sleep paralysis. 

DURING PANIC ATTACK

I was terrified and had to get out of my bed IMMEDIATELY. I turned on all the lights and felt my heart pounding against my chest at what felt like 300 miles an hour. 

Then this is where I started really going downhill and I felt very nervous and VERY vulnerable to tell anyone what I was thinking during the next hour BUT once I finally told one person, they were able to relate, and then suddenly I realized that everyone I spoke to who had had a panic attack was able to relate and I found a lot of comfort in that. 

So - I willlll tell you. 

Once the panic attack started happening I felt like both sides of my brain were communicating with me EXTREMELY FAST. It was like non stop thoughts back and forth over and over and over and AND OVER AND over again for the next hour. 

One side of me would think, just BREATHE, you're having a panic attack, call a friend, it's okay, everything will be fine. 

And then this is where it was scary. 

The other part of my brain was thinking, hurt yourself. Jump off the balcony, Do something insane. Don't have anyone over. Don't talk to anyone. You WANT to hurt yourself. 

It was absolute HELL. 

I couldn't understand why I was thinking such insane thoughts. I couldn't understand why this was happening to me. 

I called my boyfriend but he was at work and then ended up calling my friend in SD. While I was talking to her my legs started shaking uncontrollably and I had to lie in bed. I wanted to feel like I had someone with me so I asked her to stay on the phone with me but I honestly didn't feel like talking much. I was SO hot then SO cold and couldn't stop shaking so that was making it hard to speak anyways. 

My friend was trying to be as helpful as possible by just asking me questions and telling me about her day but I actually didn't want to answer questions or feel like I had to listen to stories. Again - IT SUCKED. 

While we were on the phone my boyfriend called me back (this is probably like 30 minutes into the attack) and he tried to get me to calm down and asked me if I wanted our friend to come over. 

Part of me was thinking YES. YES please hurry, I need someone here before I go insane, get them over here asap. 

The other part of me (and yes I realize this is crazy) was thinking NO. ABSOLUTELY NOT. You can't even stand to walk to the door of your room, how are you going to walk all the way downstairs, through the parking lot and to the front to let someone in? What if you do something crazy. What if they start annoying you and you tell them to leave? Then what happens from there? 

Mind you - this was all the thoughts going on in my head. Meanwhile I'm not saying anything more than "uh...um...I don't...maybe.." to my boyfriend. He was about to tell me to text him if I decide what I wanedt to do before I finally managed to blurt out "YES, get Steph over here. Hurry".

Stephanie is a good friend of ours and she did everything right. Before coming over she googled "how to talk to a person having a panic attack" where she realized that she needed to be veryyy calm, and not judgmental at all. She nailed it haha. 

I managed to take 7 big deep breaths while I was putting my shoes on and walked to meet her (slowly) at the front of the apartment where I like leached on to her, haha poor thing. She noticed how much I was shaking because we talked about it later but she didn't mention it when she was walking back up with me. 

She asked me where I wanted to chill and made me some calming tea and turned the tv on for me. We kept the lights off because that felt too aggressive for me and she kind of just told me in a really calm way that she was there for whatever I needed and then didn't try to spark up conversation. 

That was the best. 

It was like 10:00pm by the time I was able to eat a little something and feel myself relax. It was like taking my first big deep breathe in months then letting it out and feeling SOOOOOOOOO exhausted. 

AFTER THE PANIC ATTACK 

I felt like I came out of a crazy ass dream. Again I was just sooo effing tired. I mean, I was already tired before the whole episode even started so you can imagine how I felt after. I was able to start having actual conversations with Steph without feeling like I was tense or out of breath and then we both calmed down over a glass of red wine which was THHHE BEST. 

THE NEXT DAY (FRIDAY)

I felt far from myself. I was VERY irritable, and then happy, and then irritable, and then tired, then REALLY TIRED. I was forcing myself to get in the sun and walk along the beach just for the purpose of raising my endorphins but all that ended up happening was me forcing myself to smile, avoiding eye contact with people and wondering when I would feel normal again. 

I even went and got a burger and an aperol spritz and read my book by the beach because I figured that would be a form of treating myself and feeling good, which it did! But by the time I was driving to work which was only about an hour later - I was down again, and stayed that way for the rest of the night. 

SATURDAY

2 days following the panic attack I was with my boyfriend all day and I felt like I found this new form of happiness that would never leave. I felt like not only was I back to myself BUT I knew what losing my mind felt like versus being in control and I knew that as long as I never had to feel out of control again, that every single day would be amazing. 

I was like on a high this day. SO SO SO happy and I part of me was thinking it would last for forever haha BUUUT it didn't. 

(I promise this story is almost over). 

SUNDAY

Sunday is important to talk about because this is where I learned that it is possible to have minor panic attacks again after a big one for up to 1-2 weeks. The day was amazing again, just like Saturday. During the evening though I found myself home, alone, and THOUGHT that everything was great. I had some food, watched some TV, and was trying to get myself to relax. Around 6:00 pm I went onto my balcony to write in my journal and before I could even write the date, I realized I was in the same setting I was during the attack. 

It was quiet, I was home alone, and I before I knew it by heart started racing and I felt like the walls were caving in. I literally just picked up my book and my journal, threw on some shoes, grabbed my keys and bolted out of my house. 

We have a huge park right next to us so I went there and tried journaling, didn't help. 

I walked around the track - didn't help. At this point it was getting dark and they were starting to turn the park lights off and the thought of going back to my house was basically debilitating. 

I hate feeling like I'm bothering anything or in the way but I felt like I had no other option than to ask Steph again if I could come to her place and just stay with her until my boyfriend got home. To be honest - I was so shaken up that I had a couple shots when I first got there that I feel like helped me calm down a little bit but I didn't feel the lease bit intoxicated. My mind was still wandering and I was feeling frustrated at this point. 

AS THE DAYS WENT ON. 

People that had experienced attacks were telling me that I can't keep running from it, which I knew but it was just so damn hard. They told me to avoid things that might trigger the same feelings as the attack so exercise had to be light in order not to raise my heart rate, coffee should be avoided, drinking should be avoided, and I just needed to rest. 

SO, at this point, about three weeks later, I would say I'm feeling 100% better. I just wanted to share this with you guys so you know what to expect, what to do, and what to be aware of after the attack. 

Feel free to share your story below!

XXX

THE PURPOSE OF MY LATEST HAIR CUT

Alright - what's up ya'lllll. So if you guys follow me on insta you might have seen a couple of my posts about me making the spontaneous decision to chop all of my hair off haha. 

The last time I cut my hair super short (think like shoulder length), I was in 10th grade and i basically wanted to die afterwards. i kept it up as much as possible and never cut it short again. Fast forward to this week when I randomly decided to hit up my hair dresser and asked her to take it all off again. 

I know this blog could potentially sound boring, but I promise, there's a point behind all of this that I really want to share with you guys and more importantly, I really want to get some feedback from you guys to see if anyone relates. 

At this point, I'm sitting here post haircut and JUST NOW trying to figure out where my desire to cut 12 inches off came from. Literally - I asked my hair dresser when the soonest was that she could get me in and she said she just had someone cancel and she could take me that same day. 

Like WTF why???

I'm now realizing how powerful this decision was for me and I think I'm grasping where the motivation came from. 

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As women, most of us are BEYOND attached to our hair. I know that for me personally, I used it as my main accessory. i don't know how to do my make up other than the same daily look, I don't own a lot of jewelry or dress up often...my thing was my hair. 

I placed SO much of my identity with my hair I think because that's the one thing I got so many compliments on. It made me feel sexy. I grabbed it in photo shoots, flipped it, played with it, literally every shoot I've ever done - the emphasis for me, has been my hair, and maybe a spray tan...

And whenever I would tell someone that I was thinking about cutting it, they would FREAK out. They would 100% tell me not to do it, especially guys. 

This is how I know that our hair is SUCH a feminine thing to have. You're beautiful if you have it and men love it but I suddenly came to realize that BECAUSE of this, I was using my hair as something to sort of hide behind. 

I would dress down because I figured I could just do something quick with my hair and look fine. I got lazier with my physical exercise because even with what I do, I felt that as long as my hair looked good then all the focus wouldn't be on JUST my body. 

I also started to think things like, I can't be SO into street style fashion as I'd like to be because my hair makes me look a little more preppy and now I look like I'm trying to be something that I'm not...when in reality, I've always been more of a tomboy than anything. 

Of course I've learned to love all different types of styles over the last few years but when it comes down to it, I'm way more into a funky t-shirt or button down with some ripped jeans and sneakers that I am a dress with heels. 

The challenge for me now is going to be, well, basically everything haha. That might sound crazy to say but when you've held on to something for 7 years because you felt it was one of the most "beautiful" parts of you and suddenly get rid of it, there's this sense of freedom and also nervousness. 

What will I look like in shoots? What will I look like naked? What will I look like when I get out of the water at the beach? Or when I go out at night? 

Who the fuck knows. Not horrible though lol. I'm obsessed with a little challenge. I will learn how to be more comfortable in my SKIN and I will start to pay more attention to some of thing that I've half ass-ing. And most importantly - I will stop hiding behind my hair. 

I'd love to know what you guys think about this or if this resonates with any of you.

I LOVE YOUUU!

XX

LET YOUR BODY FLUCTUATE

PHOTOGRPAHY: THEETERNALCHILD

So I'd say maybe like 5 days ago I felt like I was on my way to a 6 pack and then a day later I looked 3 months pregnant. 

Uh yeah so that was frustrating. 

I didn't have a night out drinking. I wasn't on my period. I didn't eat 9 gallons of sodium. I just woke up and noticed my stomach wasn't as flat as it had been for the week prior. 

Which by the way doesn't mean that I was like HUGE, it just means that I looked different. 

I've been busting my ass with BBG and spin classes and filling my more mellow days yoga so it's also not like I haven't been active.

So to wake up and feel kinda shitty all day is SUPER ANNOYING. I think this is something that all of us girls notice right away, even when it's the SLIGHTEST changes, right?

No one else notices, even though you think they do.

But that doesn't stop you from thinking about it all day, trying to suck it in, wearing more clothes, etc.

I was thinking about this this morning because after 3 days of feeling a little shitty I woke up today feeling the same way I did a week ago with a flat stomach and no bloating complaints. 

Then TONIGHT I had three different veggie sides at a restaurant which sounded like a good idea but they were all cooked in so much oil that SERIOUSLY YOU GUYS I LITERALLY looked 8 months pregnant and felt like I was on my death bed. 

I kinda wanted to stab myself but I just forced myself to drink a lot of water and sure enough, 2 hours later, I feel normal again. 

I've realized that sometimes our body is doing things that we aren't aware of and don't understand. The best thing to do is to just carry on with your day the way you normally would.  

Drink a lot of water, go to a workout class or hit the gym even though you don't really want to, and eat 6 small, healthy meals. 

I feel like as soon as we start to feel like we're off our game we reason with ourselves that eating like shit for the rest of the day is a good idea when in reality this just makes us feel worse at the end of the day. 

Do you feel like this every happens to you?

If so I'd love to know how you deal!!

XX

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THE HOTTEST BOSS GIRL IN THE GAME

There's a few women out there who I find myself completely girl crushing over because they just know how to take life by the balls and KILL IT. 

I look up to women who are hard working, healthy, fun, charismatic, 100% true to who they are, and if they can manage a successful relationship somewhere in there too, then more power to them. 

One of my favorites is Cameron Diaz which I've mentioned about 100 times before. She's successful and she found her calling to empower women all over the world when she decided to be educational AF and school us all on everything you need to know about your health. From your teeniest tiniest cells to accepting your body image, she's got it all.

There's been others but more recently, I am completely obsessed and in awe of the one and only

AMANDA CHANTAL BACON.

33 year old CEO, mother, open hearted, stylish bohemian business woman. 

Bacon grew up in Manhattan and made the city her own. As a young woman she grew up smoking cigs and dropping acid by the time she was 14, trying hallucinogens and letting her mind wander. To say the least - she wasn't at her healthiest. 

She was diagnosed with a hyper thyroid condition, respiratory issues and came to find that she was allergic to wheat, sugar and cow dairy. At the time it was unfortunate news for her and her mother Chantal Bacon (Betsy Johnson's Partner and CEO) to hear but now, A. Bacon refers to this as her divine intervention.

In this article, she states:

“I tried every drug multiple times,” she says. “And you know, tried swimming in the ocean at night on those drugs and tried green hair and making out with your best friend on those drugs and maybe like a tennis match while blowing bubbles in the middle of the night on mushrooms and really like taking you there to the highest peak, man,” she says. “This was that time in New York where things were really crazy, before Giuliani came in and straightened us all out.” 

After a few too many careless nights out, Bacon did what I feel like we ALL wish we had the courage to do and packed up her life to restart with a fresh cleanse in Italy. Um yes please!

She detoxed then moved herself back to America but this time exploring the West Coast. She landed in Los Angeles working for a chef where she was living the life of basically anyone that works in a demanding restaurant. Surrounded by greasy food, late nights and a demanding schedule, she re kindled her liking for what she had learned when she was combating her allergies and started playing around with healthy foods. 

She claims that she started out with some surface level things like green smoothies, hemp seeds and maybe an avocado here and there. 

But knowing her addictive personality, she wanted to FEEL more. She wanted to go deeper and see how much she could REALLY get from the health that was unknown. 

“I want more energy, I want more vitality, I want more hair, I want more kidney chi, when I have sex I want it to be sexier, and when I meditate I want to go out further!”

She began working with with kinesiologists, Ayurvedic doctors, and stayed up until 5 in the morning reading medical text books to gain a deeper understanding. Needless to say, she found her passion and ran with it. 

Her friends thought she was nuts. She was gaining momentum with the Moon Juice idea but was receiving negative feedback from people claiming that there was NO WAY anyone was going to pay 9 dollars for a juice. 

Not only did she say fuck it and start charging 9 dollars for juices but she also created the magic of "Dusts" which are available to you at $30 bucks a pop. 

This got some major lash back from strangers on their keyboards with comments blasting the internet saying that her dusts "taste like sweet n low mixed with dirt" and others went on to complain that her product was too expensive especially for not even being approved by the FDA. 

Bacon basically kept a smile and noted that you choose what you would like to invest in. Do you drink cocktails? Do you get your nails done? Do you want to pay for a new shirt or do you want these adaptogens? 

I agree 100%. When I tell people how much I paid for a few dusts people roll their eyes and say that "that's just too expensive." 

It's only too expensive if it's not worth it to you. 

I would probably pay more to be honest with you. When I have the brain and spirit dust in my coffee in the morning, I feel it. I notice that I'm focused, I notice that I am happy and I notice that things just seem to flow. 

Amanda opened up her first shop in Venice when she was pregnant and had a line out the door on day one without doing ANY MARKETING. INSANE.

She say's that she still doesn't understand how this happened but I think it says a lot about what people are interested in and what they are willing to learn in the health and wellness community. 

Since then she has opened up 2 more stores and is obviously in the process of opening more, in between being a full time single mom and just recently launching her first book (which I'm about to go figure out where to buy as soon as I'm done writing this!). 

She inspires me to know more, read further, feel deeper, and work harder. 

Amanda if you ever read this, THANK YOU! 

Leave a comment below if you have a favorite dust or let me know who you're favorite girl boss is right now! I always want to find more women who inspire me!

XX

MOVING IN WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND BEFORE MARRIAGE...THOUGHTS?!

Well you guys....! The time has finally come. 

I'm getting my very first place with just myself...and my cooler half!

I. AM. STOKED. 

Turns out that we are signing the lease on Valentine's Day (which I thought was super cute...I'm already planning the whole night! Sign the lease, grab some blankets, some wine, some snacks, games and the iPad and have a full blown slumber party in there with no furniture.) Ha! 

Ever since I moved out of my parents house in SD when I was 21 I have lived in LA with two of my best friends from High School. 

We went from The Valley in LA, to the Marina where we stayed for 2 years then back to the Valley where we've been for the past 12 months. 

What's kind of funny though is that my boyfriend (Esteban) and I discussed moving in together LAST time my lease was up.

He was SUPER cute about it. He took me out to dinner with a view (my fav) and pretty much laid it all out and asked if I was ready to move in with him.

Then there's me...miss indecisive. I said yes at dinner and then thought about it for a few more days and decided that I actually DIDN'T feel ready. 

I felt like I was still having a lot of fun living with my roommates and I know he's the one I want to be with so I figured we have a lot of time to live together so I didn't want to rush into it. (I'm SUUUUUUPER slow in relationships).

I'd say it wasn't until the last 6 months that something clicked and I was DYING for us to have our own place.

I FELT READY. 

As I started talking about it to people though I was getting mixed feedback. 

I'd say mostly everyone was really excited for us and already told me what they're getting us as a house warming gift.

But then...there waaas I'd say, a handful of people that we're a little more hesitant. 

They we're either asking me if I was sure I didn't want to wait to be married first or they were telling me their nightmarish stories of back in the dayyyy when they lived with a boyfriend and they broke up and it was the worst break up ever because you still have a leaseee and what do you do with the furniture and blah blah blah. 

Which I totally get BUT. 

What do you guys think?

I feel like for me PERSONALLY, I want to take things slow.

And moving in together is FAR LESS of a commitment than getting married so I feel like it makes sense to do that first. (even though I definitely plan on marrying him ;) )

I want to experience us having our own space together and letting our styles intertwine and just enjoy the journey. 

I'm not really very interested... in fact I'm bored at the thought of doing 'what people usually do" or " doing things in the right order".

I think you should do things in an order that makes sense to you and the person you're choosing to spend your time with. 

So with that said. I'm pretty effing excited. 

If you think about it, this is going to be my FIRST PLACE EVER that I don't have to hoard everything I own into my bedroom.

So obviously I've been SUCH a Pinterest slut lately. 

I'm already planning the house warming party and picturing my mornings at the new place plus getting hard over the fact that Trader Joe's is like 5 minutes away! UGH. WHAT IS LIFE!

I can't wait to bring you guys along on the move and show you the new spot. We're both veryyy laid back, minimalist to an extent (or trying to be) and into some artistic ish so I'm picturing plants, pink walls, comfort and LOTS of blank space. 

EEEEEK. Wish us luck! 

And leave any comments below if you have been or are in a similar situation !

XX

MACA ROOT IS THE NEW V-DAY GIFT.

First of all, please allow me to set the scene for you right now.

I'm chillin in the most comfortable robe I've ever felt (it's 150.00 if you want to take it home...l'm kinda considering???) at the ACE HOTEL in downtown LA for the coolest event I've ever been invited to. 

I'm probably going to do an entire blog for the event so don't worry, I'll keep you in the loop BUT while I have some downtime right now in between this mornings brunch and tonights run, I want to talk to you guys about MACA powder. 

I placed an order with MRM again the other day to re stock on pre workout and L-Carnitine (which I also brought with me today so I can take it before today and tomorrow's run haha, seriously HATE working out without them), AND I looked into MRM's superfood powders. 

I saw that they have Maca root powder which I haven't really experimented with yet but I've been hearing a lot of about it.

Two days later it was at my front door and the day after that I was hooked. 

I put a TBS of it into my smoothie that I've been taking with me to work and drank it throughout my shift. 

Now, if you read my last blog, then you know that my smoothie is already pretty stocked with lots of vitamins, minerals, collagen and other goodies but I could still notice a difference this time around. 

Without knowing anything about it, the first thing I noticed was that I was EXTRA focused but had lots of energy (someone actually asked me if I took an adderall HA! No.)

I got home and was still loaded with energy so I dove into Google to get alllll the deets. 

The first thing I read besides Maca being one of the worlds few SUPERFOODS is that some of it's primary benefits include:

POSITIVE EFFECT ON HORMONE BALANCE,  ENERGY LEVELS AND HEALTH BOOSTER. 

So I wasn't crazy about feeling energy.

Now I was intrigued by the hormone balance...which is why I put this blog in the girl section. PREPARE...TO THANK ME ;)

Maca root has been historically known as a very potent aphrodisiac that increases fertility in both men and women, balances hormones, boosts the immune system, increases stamina and improves sexual function, memory and focus. 

This article says that "Consuming Maca often makes people feel more "alive", energetic, and leaves them with a sense of well-being, all of which are thought to be due to it's ability to restore proper hormone balance and elevate "feel good" endorphins. Another benefit of Maca is it's relatively high amount of absorbable plant-based nutrients, including protein, fiber, calcium and magnesium, among others".

I personally know that this is something that I'm going to have everyday now thanks to it's nutritional benefits. As a vegetarian, I kind of have to search for other foods that will supply me with enough vitamins and minerals since I lack iron, magnesium, and of course my protein mainly comes from protein shakes and beans.

Maca offers me PLENTY of nutrients including but not limited to over 20 amino acids, Calcium, Magnesium, Iron, Zinc and 20 free-form fatty acids. 

After doing some research I found that there is no set serving size for consuming Maca, but most people suggest starting with 1 TBS because it does give you energy (which is why a lot of people like to have it before a work out) and then you can work your way up to 2-3 TBS a day. 

Want the specifics? Here's some more 411. 

TOP 3 MACA ROOT BENEFITS: 

1. MENOPAUSE, CRAMPS, PERIOD BS.

As I've already mentioned a million times, Maca root helps balance our hormones. An unbalance in our hormones is basically why we feel like we're on a psycho girl roller coaster when we're on our periods. We cry watching any commercial, reconsider being vegetarian for an in-n-out burger and hate everyone then love everyone. 

I think we would all love some balance during that time yeah? Ha, shit. 

2. INCREASED SEXUAL LIBIDO:

Maca increases the sexual libido in women, most likely due to it's ability to raise serotonin levels " the feel good hormone". It also restores the health of our adrenal and thyroid glands which regulate A TON of our feelings including stress levels and appetite. 

3. ENERGY, MEMORY AND MOOD. 

People that regularly use maca report that they feel more driven, awake and energized which I can DEFINITELY vouch for. Since the Maca decreases levels of anxiety and depression, it is easier to maintain a stable level of positivity! And unlike coffee, it gives you a FOCUSED energy that doesn't give you jitters, AND it lasts longer. 

I put it in my coffee this morning and it was actually really good! It has a slightly nutty and sweet flavor ALTHOUGH, try to only use it with COLD recipes. So use it in a cold brew, smoothie or on yogurt for example. Pairing it with HOT recipes takes away from it's nutrients. 

DON"T FORGET!!

You can save 40% on the Maca Powder I'm using from MRM-USA simply by buying it here from MRM and using my code CHELSEY at check out! Make sure you spell it with a "Y" and not an "A" haha. 

ENJOY!!

HOW TO HANDLE A BREAK UP - MY 4 BEST TIPS

UGGGGGGGHHHH. 

It's been a while since I've personally been through a break up but I DEFINITELY know how it feels and that it completely blows. 

I've had a few people hit me up recently telling me that they're going through a break up and wanted some advice. 

I think I've seen enough happen and I've seen where people mess up too often after a break up that I kind of just want to talk about it.

First of all, I've never been that girl that's an "on and off" person in a relationship. We're either dating or we're not. I don't see the point in leaving that grey, in between area open to kind of just do whatever you want. 

It kind of just seems like an opportunity to do something wrong and not get in trouble for it.

SO, when I break up with someone, it's DONE. 

PS: I'd love to hear any of your tips or stories so comment below if you have any!

So if you're in a situation where it's DONE, especially if you're the one that got broken up with, then consider some of these "tips?" I guess I would call them... Because none of your friends want to hear you talk about your on and off relationship for 10 years. THEY'RE OVER IT, you need to be over it too. 

1.

DON'T STALK THEM ON SOCIAL MEDIA. 

Always and forever, this will be number one. You are COMPLETELY 100% torturing yourself when you go see what the last thing was that they posted, who they're following since the break up, what their captions say, where their geo-tags are....BLAH, STOP. 

It's also silly to me because it's so easy to block someone but it seems like a lot of people after a break up make a huge effort to stalk their ex on social media ALL DAMN DAY. 

You are not going to get over someone if you are obsessing over their every move and breath. You stay extremely attached to that person and it's just un healthy. I mean, especially if they broke up with you then I think you need to realize that you need to move on. 

Don't torture yourself. 

2.

DO YOU.

OMG. Maybe this should be number 1? It's a close call. If someone breaks up with you, DO NOT SPEND YOUR TIME TRYING TO GET THEIR ATTENTION. This is such a bad move. I feel like I can even see right through posts where people are trying to get back at their ex. 

Don't post a picture of yourself in Europe and talk about how your so happy to be there only because you know your ex REALLLLY wanted to go to Europe. 

Don't even post a picture of you drinking a Caramel late when you hate Starbucks but you know that was your ex's favorite drink. 

Get what I'm saying? Because at the end of the day, THE ONLY REASON you are posting that picture is because you are waiting to see if he or she is going to react to it. So you're still technically using SO much energy throughout your day just to get that persons attention. 

And the worst part? They know what you're doing. I mean they dated you right? They know you. They're going to know if you're being genuine or fake so don't let them have that satisfaction that you're still worried about what they think. 

DO YOU. 

3.

DON'T POST YOURSELF PARTYING 

Okay - for some this might seem totally appropriate which yeah go have some cocktails with your girls and if you want to post a picture of that I think thats okay BUT don't make the caption ANYTHING about him, or her. 

But if you never party, don't purposely go out and get hammered and post pictured of yourself with people you don't know JUST to "get back" at your ex. 

If I saw my ex do that I would laugh. especially if they never liked clubs you know? It would be so obvious that they were still wasting energy just trying to get back at me, which is kind of pathetic. 

If someone breaks up with me, I go off the radar. You won't know where I'm at, what I'm doing, how I'm doing...and at the end of the day, that's going to drive your ex more insane that him being able to see your every move and see that you're still clearly obsessed with them. 

4.

GET BUSY. 

Post break up for me is like crack. I feel like it's the best time to do all the shit you forgot that you wanted to do while you were in a relationship. This is also why you never want to get to this point in a relationship. 

You should be able to be you + MORE in a relationship...not 1/2 of who you are because you were too busy giving yourself to someone else. 

If you're going through a break up then you need to make sure you're busy all day doing things for yourself. This helps keep your mind off of your break up and it helps push your forward. 

Start going to the gym again and get your diet on point. Start hanging out with friends that you haven't made time for in a while. Go work on what YOU want to do. 

People that go through break ups and spend all day doing nothing other than trying to get the attention of their ex end up digging themselves deeper into a hole of depression, and girllllll you don't have time for that. 

I feel like whether you're going through a break up or if you've been single for a while and you feel like you want to start dating, the absolute best thing you can possible do is DO YOU. 

Be yourself, don't play games, and focus on your goals.

Doing you will always be the most attractive thing you can do.

Comment your tips, tricks, and stories below!

Love you guys

xx

PROUDLY CAPPING OFF 2016, AND SETTING GOALS FOR NEXT YEAR

December really seems like it can be a hit or miss right? I think that we all get caught up in the fact that a whole year has gone by (again) and we wonder if we could have gotten more done. 

We're really just moving on from the month of December to the month of January but we don't really look at it like that. I know for me at least, I spend time in December writing down all the things I want to accomplish for the following year. 

When I look back on it I can easily see all the things that I was able to check off vs. all the things I didn't even come close to finishing - which can be kinda depressing right? Do any of you do that?

Being bummed out is pretty much one of my least favorite things. I hate being in a bad mood or upset but sometimes it's hard to avoid, especially when it comes to the progress of myself.

SO! I always try to turn things around by finding the positive which is why this year I decided to take a look back on 2016 and write down everything that I was proud of and what I had accomplished. 

I highly recommend trying this! 

It really showed me where my focus was this year, which helps me figure out what I neglected and allows me to make more of an effort in those areas for the following year.

Some things I'm grateful for in 2016:

• branching off into chelsey rose health
• launching my first physical product
• getting better at my photography
• being more consistent with my blogging
• doing my biggest collaboration so far 
• getting paid for my first fitness video shoot 
• traveling to NY for my first time
• living with esteban
• Working with someone who i've wanted to work with since i moved to LA
• Staying Healthy
• Understanding my direction and getting a better grasp on who I am and how I work
• Doing collaborations with Breville, Perfect Bar, FItMoo, BeFit, Persu, FabFitFun, and more

 I definitely noticed that my focus this year was all about work and growing my brand which I'm very excited about. I knew that that was what I wanted to focus on this year and I'm happy with the progress that I made. I'm so grateful for new people that I've gotten close to and how I've managed to be more consistent.

I'm HUGE on writing down goals and keeping them somewhere where you can see them at all times. People sometimes ask me if I have a journal, or a notebook, or a planner to organize...I literally have all 3 plus two white boards, and keep reminders and notes in my phone.

It is so important to figure out what you want in the long run and then working backwards to figure out what you need to do DAY TO DAY to get to that end goal. If you don't write these things down then you can't be aware of the progress you've made and you might lose direction and motivation. 

I just wrote down my goals for 2017 in the notes on my computer but I plan on transferring them to my white boards at home and I plan on talking to a few people about them. 

Talking to people that support you about what your goals are and what you want to accomplish is SO IMPORTANT. 

When I tell people that I want to do something, they tend to check in on me about them and the progress I've made. They also can be a helping hand because they know what I'm wanting to do so they might meet people that could help me accomplish my goals.

So, to take a step in holding myself accountable, I want to share with you guys some of the things that i want to accomplish/ some things that I'm excited about for the upcoming year!

• Spend more quality time with my family
• Start a podcast
• Create a membership for my readers with exclusive content
• Offer my health guide and fitness guide
• Spend less time at my 9-5 and more time at home doing what I love
• Move in to a place with my boyfriend!
• Take my sisters on a trip
• Start a new hobby
• Meet new fitness goals
• Fix my back
• Start meditating
• Start a serious savings account to buy a house
• Pay of my credit cards
• Take random trips throughout the United States

That's just some of the things that I want to focus on this year but I'm realizing that I want to try to spend more time exploring and spending time with my family this year. 

I also hope to make new leaps in my career and try to back away from being at my normal job as much. 

Now i'll take this list and try to start planning it out. I'll try to plan trips, I'll start seeing what I need to do to start a podcast, how long it takes and what I need to do weekly to make sure that everything runs smoothly. 

I'll write down fitness goals (maybe one for each month?) and I'll start making appointments for physical therapy to get my back straightened out. 

See how this all helps me work towards my goals? Without this list, I would just enter the new year with a few ideas that I would probably only work on casually when I decided to think about it. 

Now I know what I want, and I can have a game plan. This is so important in reaching your goals so I highly recommend that you try it and also try writing down everything your proud of from 2016 rather than being bummed out about what you didn't finish. 

Let me know what some of your goals are below so I can help hold you accountable!

xoxo

Chelsey

HOW TO EAT HEALTHY WHEN YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND

I think we all know how this goes right? You eat like a bird when you're just talking, then you eat like a born again 15 year old once you've been dating, and then you try to figure out the 'when', 'how' and 'why' of nothing fitting you anymore. 

Classic.

Damn boys. And it's so EASY at first right? You're still going on your first couple of dates so you order appetizers as entrées or just stick to a salad and a drink, my fav. 

Then something happens as time goes on where eventually you're both hungry, you could go for light bite but he says he's hungry for a beer and a burger and suddenly...SHIT. YOU ARE TOO.

Next thing you know you're just two guys sitting at the bar ordering 3 beers each and french fries and wings and you don't even eat meat.

UGH BUT WE SECRETLY LOVE EATING ALL THE SHIT, DON'T WE? WE REALLY REALLY DO.

I feel like there comes a point where we realize that they love the shit out of us and forget that we're supposed to care about our bodies. French fries? YES. Dark beer? DOUBLE YES. Veggie Burger with the bun even though I'm full from the second beer. HELL MF YES.

SO. After a few months of that I realized I had to get my life together and stop eating like a 6 foot man. 

But seriously, enjoy that time while it lasts because it definitely is a huge cheat card (the whole falling in love thing) and it's glorious. We're supposed to enjoy drinks and fatty foods and pancakes with them on Sunday mornings. But not for forever.

Now, here's what you need to do. You need to get them into eating healthy foods. That's it. Here's how. 

1.

MAKE THEM HEALTHY FOOD THAT'S NOT BORING.

Breakfast for example. At some point you need to stop eating out every single day and actually start eating at home. Half the battle with THAT is being able to feed them something that will actually be satisfying. I can personally totally get by in the morning with bullet proof coffee and toast or a piece of fruit and be chillin, but that's me. 

Boys don't really dig that too much.

SO, I started making my boyfriend egg sandwiches in the morning and he's obsessed. It's so easy you guys and honestly, I'm obsessed with them too so give it a try. 

- 2 pieces of Dave's Killer Bread

- 4 eggs

- 1/2 an avocado

- Small handful of Spinach

- 1 TBSP Vegan "Mayo" Spread (trader joe's)

Just cook the eggs in coconut oil, throw the bread in the toaster, add the avocado and spinach to a piece of bread and throw it all together. SO EASY. 

2.

DON'T TELL THEM YOUR SECRETS

If he likes spaghetti covered in sodium and fat filled pasta sauce, try making a slight adjustment like swapping out the white pasta noodles with whole grain pasta noodles. Tell him it's all the store had or something, who cares. Then grab a healthy organic marinara sauce, top it all with some mozzarella style vegan almond cheese and shredded basil and call it a day. They're just going to see that it's pasta, and eat it. 

ALSO my curry cauliflower rice is the best because it's filling and they think they're eating rice, it's perfect. 

Then after he admits that he likes it you can tell him it's healthy so he can just fucking accept the fact that he likes it. Or don't, whatever.

3.

TAKE HIM TO HEALTHY PLACES

If he's asking you where you want to eat and you always leave it up to him, then you can't get mad that your only options are pizza and cream filled soups. Take him somewhere where they have LOADS of healthy options. He really needs to understand how good a veggie burger is or a vegan mushroom quesadilla. SO GOOOOD. 

4.

MAKE HIM CURIOUS

If he's unwilling to try your healthy stuff, say F it and just do it for yourself. Then make small little mentions like, "I was starting to get sick but I had 3 green juices and it went away". Or "MMMMMM this bullet proof coffee is SOOOO good". You say that every morning and soon enough they'll be asking for some.

5. 

IF ALL ELSE FAILS. LET HIM ORDER THE SHIT FOOD

Okay this is actually kind of a plus. This is what I do. If we go out to eat and I want the pasta but I know I'm going to order the salad, then you point out how good the pasta looks, then they order it, and you can steal a few bites without having to finish the whole entree. Best of both worlds. 

Any other tips? Leave them below!

THOUGHTS ON: WORKING WITH YOUR FRIENDS...& HAVING THE BALLS TO CALL IT QUITS

PHOTOGRAPHER: THE ETERNAL CHILD

You know those times where your parents give you like, the 3 main tips to become a successful person and you don't listen then find yourself awkwardly telling them about how it didn't work out?

I feel like the three from my parents were

1. Don't rely on anyone to do ANYTHING for you.

2. Don't date a baseball player (idk why my dad had a thing against me dating baseball players haha).

3. Don't be afraid to stand up for yourself.

Over time I learned that the excuse "THEY said they we're going to do it" began to completely back fire, I striked out not one but TWO baseball players, and I always found myself biting my tongue.

Then there's the "rules of life" that everyone from your parents to the random barista repeat to you over and over and over again until your ears bleed. One of those being, DON'T work with your friends.

Right? You hear so many horror stories about it. Friendships crashing and burning like it's fucking world war 3, old people talking about what happened when they worked with their friends back in '58 and how they still hold a grudge. 

But still, I did it. And for a long time, I FREAKING LOVED IT. 

I worked with two of my best friends (who I'm still best friends with HOLLA). We were the perfect trio. We met up all the time to work on our blog, create content, go to meetings, eat, sleep, drink, EVERYTHING. 

We were always talking about where we saw ourselves in 5-10 years, what we wanted to turn our business into, what kinds of people we wanted to talk to and how we wanted to go about everything. 

BUT. There came a point where I personally started to feel....like I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. 

I started to feel like our schedules between the three of us was too much to try and keep up with and that I was sort of just falling out of love with everything that we had talked about.

OBVIOUSLY this made me feel weird, sad, confused, torn, and almost angry? I wanted things to work out but I felt like it just had been too much work with not enough of me focusing on what I wanted to be focusing on.

I know that probably sounds selfish..which is why I sat on this feeling for a YEAR.

AN ENTIRE YEAR of me feeling like I didn't know which direction I was supposed to be going in. A year of confusion, of trying to see how I could make our business work out along with what I wanted to do...IT. WAS. STRESSFUL.

If it had been some random people that I had met and we started a little business and I was losing heart for it, I think it would have been a lot easier to bring up my feelings, but it was my best friends. SO, I did one of the things that my parents always told me not to do, and I stayed quiet. 

I started working on my own thing as I continued to work with the girls, thinking that maybe I could do both. But then I found (and they started to realize) that I was more focused and determined to do what I needed to do for myself. 

AND I WAS HAVING FUN DOING IT. 

Of course then things slowly started to collide. Little arguments were happening and I KNEW I had to just spit it out and say that this thing that the three of us had spent 2 years trying to create wasn't going to happen with me in it. 

BUT I JUST COULD NOT FUCKING SPIT IT OUT!

I felt like I was ruining everything, I felt like I was giving up, failing, and I obviously didn't want my friends to be upset with me nor did I want to make them angry so I stayed quiet.

Everyone would tell me, "You have to focus on yourself", and "They're you're best friends, they're going to understand". I knew it was starting to take over my entire mind when I realized that I was trying to get advice on what to do from anyone that would listen.

Want to know what finally made me make the move?

3 Months in to 2016 I started reading a book called, THE TOP 5 REGRETS OF THE DYING by Bronnie Ware. I had seen her as a guest on Marie Forleo's YouTube and I was just so fascinated by her. 

She was this very intriguing older woman who was explaining that she grew up working as a care taker for the elderly. But I'm talking like VERY ELDERLY, like on their way out elderly. 

She said that she had spoke with so many dying people that she started to see a pattern of the things that they would say they regretted, hence the title. 

So that pretty much just slapped me in the face.

Also, regret #1 (sorta):

I say sorta because the girls only expected of me what I said I would deliver, but it was the fact that SOMETHING was telling me that I wasn't meant to be doing that anymore and didn't have the heart to say it that was killing me. 

So to read that these were two of THE TOP 5 regrets coming from people who are about to pass away and are really contemplating their lives, was a litttttttle bit of a wake up call and a notice to grow some balls.

I remember that after a nice night of shopping and grabbing dinner, I decided to tell one of the girls what I had been thinking, over a nice big bowl of ramen. Nice right?

It's our favorite ramen spot and I totally ruined dinner.

Tears we're falling into my soup like some old episode of Laguna Beach, I just blurted out that I needed to talk to her after a good laugh with no smoothness AT ALL, and I was balling like a damn baby.

#TRUETALK.

I told her that I had been thinking about this talk for forever and that it was NOT easy for me and that I felt horrible, I didn't know how to tell her blah blah blahhh. It was horribly awkward and then I pretty much just lingered in my room for the rest of the night. 

I just sat there waiting and waiting and waiting for the feeling of relief to finally come rolling over me. It didn't. I woke up in the morning, still nothing. 

I went to san diego for 2 days to clear my head...STILL NOTHING. 

I started thinking that I had totally fucked up everything and I hadn't even told my other friend personally yet. Just really screwing up everywhere, having one of those 'what am I doing with my life' moments.

Then came the big talk with the three of us, mind you this was like 2 weeks later. It was also horrible. Feelings came out and things were said while other things were just heard and hard to register but all in all, it was shitty AF.

It was pretty much everything I was trying to avoid for a year all exploding right in front of me.

But guess what...

Just like with everything else, I started to feel better with time. We all did, and it was EPIC. We all started to realize that that was the decision that needed to be made in order for all us to be happier, we just didn't know it because things were never really THAT BAD.

It was all based off a little feeling I had that it just WASN'T what I was supposed to be doing. That's it. 

Is this all making sense?

If you're doing something, especially if it's something sensitive like working with a friend or a family member and you're not 100% happy, you need to just speak up.

I promise you will feel so much better. You won't feel better right away, but you will sooner than later, and you will be so happy that you made that decision for yourself. 

Same goes for being in an unhappy relationship. 

I remember I wanted to break up with one of my exes because I just wasn't into it anymore but he didn't really do anything that drastic.

I know you've done it too. 

But that's obviously not the way to handle things. And if you're wanting to actually KEEP a relationship with the person or the people you are having trouble with, then that's REALLY not the way to do it. 

Also, I think talking to other people helped me A LOT. Mainly because I get annoyed when someone tells me their same problem like 8 jillion times and I didn't want to be one of those people.

Once I pretty much talked to everyone in my life about it like twice I realized that I had to do something about it. 

NOW, this isn't to say that working with your friends is a bad thing!! I have plenty of friends that I work with now and it's so much fun!! But it's more of working with them in a collaborative sense rather than a full on 50/50 partnership. 

What are your guys' thoughts?? Comment below or e-mail me! Would love to share thoughts with you!

xoxo

MY FAVORITE DRUGSTORE FINDS FOR SUMMER

HIIIIIII MAMA.

So if you follow me on SNAPCHAT (CHELSEYROSE) you might have already seen that I went over this briefly the other day. I LOOOOVVEE stocking up on stuff at a good ol' CVS or Walgreens. It's like all the best parts of a grocery store but in a smaller room, and probably a little cheaper. So when I run out of everything I need in life, at the same damn time, drug store runs are my favorite.

I FOR SURE have a few favorites and just got a new product from FABFITFUN that I am OBSESSED with. 

I just want to cover all my faves from mascaras and hair products that I use daily to some items that we all just NEED for summer beach vibes. 

SOUND GOOD?

I'll talk about all the products first and then I'll leave pictures and links for you at the end :)

1. Voluminous Mascara By L'Oréal

Seriously though, i've been using this since I've been old enough to wear mascara and everyone always seems to be asking me "are those your real lashes??". I've tried a bunch of other mascaras and I've never understood why I even bother. This is like 10 bucks, goes on so smooth, doesn't clump or dry out and is just THE BEST. Only thing that could make it better....? #2.

2. L'Oréal Voluminous Superstar Mascara

This is a double sided mascara with one side primer and one side mascara. Again, I tried ONLY buying this and using the mascara it comes with but still, I resorted back to using the regular voluminous mascara and only use this for it's primer. But I could just be picky. I mean, they're both Voluminous by L'Oréal, they've gotta be pretty similar right?

3. Burt's Bees BB Cream

This is the new FAAAAVV! Welcome to the fam Bb Cream ;)

This stuff is amazingggg to me! It's 15 bucks, it comes in a pretty big tube and you BARELY need to use any so it should last for like, ever. You know how the only thing you want in life is to have EVEN skin tone?? This does that for you. When I get out of the shower but don't feel like putting on a whole face of make up but also don't feel like looking like I just woke up, I use this. 

It TOTALLY evens my skin tones, it has SPF, and it just gives me a nice fresh glow. Must have. PLUS when you go to the beach and jump out of the water, just put this on! WINNER.

4. John Frieda Sheer Blonde Go Blonder Lightening Shampoo & Conditioner

This stuff actually works which is sooo exciting for blondes! My hair can get to this super brassy weird color but once I use this for maybe 2 weeks I can see NOTICEABLE improvements. 

The brassy color goes away and it just looks blonder and brighter. Money saver. 

5. Summer To Go Cup With Lid And Straw

Okay first of all, drinking more water has been a major benefit since getting this. Not to mention COLD water. I've been drinking my MRM green drink in this every morning, I took it to the beach on the fourth of July just in case I wanted to drink beer out of it, it's great. 

Like I said on my snap, I ALMOST bought the one at Starbucks but I held off and just checked out a drug store first and found one for like 1/4 of the price.

6. Not Your Mother's Beach Babe Spray

I mean, for $6.00, this is a must have in your beach bag. Trying to make my hair look anything remotely decent after getting bitch slapped in the ocean is well, impossible. I spray some of this all over my head after my hair gets damp as opposed to drenched and then scrunch it up. 

This helps give it some moisture, controls the frizz and gives it some hold. And check out their DRY SHAMPOO - also a must. 

7. Neutrogena Ultra Sheer Sunscreen SPF 100

I used to be the girl that would go lay out in the pool on a reflective floaty COVERED in baby oil. I would burn so bad that the tan lines would last for MONTHHHS. Then you start to grow up a little and realize that everyone else is right and we NEED to take care of our skin, and looking burnt is straight up unattractive. I would know - I've done it about 9 million times. 

Now every morning, I cover my face, hands, and neck in this sunscreen because those three areas are the number one tellers of age annnd we just want to avoid that conversation at some point right?

Be safe and look sexy at the same damn time. 

xoxo CR

MY LATEST BEDROOM OBSESSION

Okay guys, honestly, my room vibe is so on point right now I kindaaa wish you were here. 

White christmas lights strung around the perimeter of my closet are ON, my wine glass is a romantic 3 inches away from me, it's cloudy outside, Nara Leao is streaming thru my phone, my fresh sunflowers are lookin' extra fresh annnnnnd, my new essential oil defuser is totallllly setting the relaxing mood with some essential lavender oil. 

I knew I was growing up the day I actually started liking the smell of lavender.

Sooo, this all started the other day. It was the day after my birthday, I actually didn't feel too hungover but I definitely felt like I didn't want to see or talk to anyone all day...like for sure not. You guys get that right?

I spent my morning on groupon finding cheap deals on a microdermabrasion facial and a haircut with a conditioning treatment (TOTALLY recommend both by the way, groupon is the shit. My facial was 35 and my haircut with treatment was 20...). 

Honestly, I just wanted to be as RELAXED as possible. Not to mention I've been sick for like a damn WEEK which is SO not like me so I wanted to 1. Make sure my room was as comfy as possible and 2. Make sure I actually got some sleep this time around.  

I decided to go make a pit stop at Marshall's because, duh, who doesn't love Marshalls...and I totally ended up getting the essentials...no pun intended.

After hearing about how amazing tea tree oil is for our skin to prevent pimples AND after my hair stylist THAT DAY used tea tree oil in my hair to fix the ends, I was thinking that I would need to go to Whole Foods and spend an arm and a leg to get some BUT turns out Marshall's had some. 

And when I say some, I mean a shit ton. And I spent about 5.00 dollars on it. 

They have every kind of essential oil you can think of and they actually have cute little bundle packages too.

I got a lavender oil because the smell helps you DE-STRESS, RELAX and just CALLLMMM DOWN.

I HIGHLY recommend that you guys get one! This one was only 30 bucks and like I said, the oil's we're 5 dollars each.

These diffusers give us more energy, help us sleep and they're overall good for our health. 

They combat with nasty pathogens in the air which helps prevent us from getting sick AND if you're already sick, it acts as a humidifier and allows our airways to stay fresh and keep from getting clogged up.

Once the oils are in the air they actually BALANCE it which helps you focus, so LEGIT... you can work and think better. People actually recommend having a defuser on while you're having a work meeting or studying so that you're 100% focused.

The diffuser took like 5 minutes to set up. You just add water, add in a couple drops of your favorite essential oil and plug it in. 

It makes my whole room smell like lavender! It's like a little spa touch which I LOVE.

After looking into it a little more I found what oils they recommend for certain things so heeeeere ya go!! 

RELAXATION & SLEEP: 

Chamomile, lavender, clary sage

MOOD ELEVATING:

Sweet orange, jasmine, rose, scotch pine, sandalwood, vanilla

AVOID GETTING SICK:

Tea tree, sage, rosemary, grapefruit, lemon, thyme

BREATH EASIER:

Peppermint, Rosemary, lemon, eucalyptus

PAIN RELIEF:

Ginger, chamomile, lavender, eucalyptus, clary sage, rosemary, bergamot

FOCUS:

Peppermint, eucalyptus, lemon, pine

That's all for today :)

oxox

 

CUT THE BULL SH*T

Aggressive?

Don't worry, I don't mean it in a mean way. In fact, I'm kind of writing this as a reminder for myself!

Soooooooo

You know how life is solid, everything's pretty good, you can't complain and then BOOM, fucking out of nowhere you are drowning in life, don't know why you're even on this planet, NO clue WTF you're doing or why you're doing it. 

You see everything as pointless, you're a failure, you should be further along in your career and in your relationship.

You SUCK, right?

Literally it's like one day you say, OH! I'm so happpyyyyy! I'm living with my friends, I'm making as much money as a server as I would If I had a "real" job, I'm single AF and loving iiiiitttt HAAAAY.

Next day:

WHY THE HELL don't I have my own place yet, I HATE living with people, I still work in a restaurant, I'm just gunna serve people for the rest of my life, I never fulfilled what I ACTUALLY wanted to do, I should be at least dating someone at this point.........

Yeah - we've all been there.

Including me, for sure.

All I'm going to say right now is, 

RELAX. RELAX. RELAX. 

Deep breath in...annnnd out. One more timmmme....cool. Now let's talk.

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1. THE LAW OF ATTRACTION

So maybe you are this person or you've heard this before but ...The person that when something bad happens says, "I KNEW THAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN!"

Um, what?

Why would you pre meditate something bad happening?? That's just a weird thing to do. 

Well you say because, bad things always happen to you and you just KNEW that something was going to happen.

Again, weird. 

I'm the kind of person where if things don't go well I think, well...NEXT STEP. I don't dwell on it and I sure as hell don't tell everyone that that was what I was EXPECTING.

I'm ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS expecting THE BEST.

The best opportunity, the best parking spot, the best trip, the best tip, whatever.

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People that are constantly expecting the worst are SERIOUSLY damaging their motivational drive, their perspective, their opportunities and their risk to take chances because no matter what they will ALWAYS seem to have a reason or an excuse as to why it won't work or go well.

I'm currently reading a book right now called, The Secret. I'm curious as to who has heard of it and who hasn't but basically...

SPOILER ALERT

It's about the one, the only, the LAW OF ATTRACTION.

Have you guys heard of this before?

This is how Google defines it:

The LAW OF ATTRACTION is the name given to the maxim "like attracts like" which in New Thought philosophy is used to sum up the idea that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts a person brings positive or negative experiences into their life.

Pretty basic right?

It's basically saying that whatever you expect, you will get...whether you're expecting good things or bad things.

So if you're expecting bad health or expecting your boyfriend or girlfriend to cheat on you or you're expecting your car to break down, or whatever, then it's MORE LIKLEY to happen.

You're brain doesn't necessarily register that that is a bad thing. It just knows that you're thinking of this particular thing happening, so it starts to subconsciously help you achieve that.

Scary right?

Even if you don't know how the hell it could even be possible that something could work, if it is what you want, then YOU NEED to think and believe that it will work.

You will have good health, you will be in a long lasting & loving relationship, you will be a millionaire, you will move to Costa Rica ... Get what I'm saying?

I remember when I first moved to LA my dad asked me to write out my budget.

I lied my freaking face off on that budget and I was scared. I didn't know how the hell or where the fuck I was going to come up with money for rent, food, insurance, my car payment, gas and whatever else but I just KNEW I would make it work. 

It doesn't mean that it was easy and it doesn't mean that there weren't times where I was saying "God, I don't know how this is going to work but, I trust ya!" but it all worked out. And hey, I've never asked my parents for money so HOLLA.

2. WHAT YOU THINK, YOU SEE

An easier example might be this:

You know how when you start dating someone and out of no where you start seeing their car ALL AROUND THE EFFING GLOBE??

It's obviously not your boyfriend or girlfriend that you're seeing driving down the street 9 million times but it's the same make and model of the car they have.

That's because this person is constantly on your mind and now you are more drawn to things that you never would have noticed before.

The same thing happens when we start to visualize ourselves a certain way.

Pretty cool right?

This is why in any success book I've ever read they all say to write down where you see yourself in X amount of years. What are you wearing? What is your morning schedule? What does your house look like? BE SPECIFIC.

When you start to really see yourself somewhere you make it more tangible, Then your brain starts to work on again, subconsciously, figuring out how to obtain those things.

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So if you feel like things aren't going your way just chill out, stay positive and tell yourself that everything is going to work out. My immediate advice would be to go get this book called THE SECRET by Rhonda Byrne as well as AWAKEN THE GIANT WITHIN by Anthony Robbins.

These books will help you stay positive and help you think about what you really want and help you plan on how to get there.

Keep your head up!

xoxo Chelsey 

DON'T POINT OUT YOUR OWN "FLAWS"

Okay, Imagine that you just started dating a guy and you are just head over heels for him. You don't see anything wrong with him, you think he's gorg from hair to toe, he doesn't annoy you and you just love being around him..

k?

Now imagine that every time you hang out with this guy you notice that he talks about or mentions or complains about his teeth.

Maybe they're not the straightest but you never noticed. If anything I'm sure you thought it was cute and different that they weren't perfectly straight. You didn't really give a shit.

But he keeps on talking about it and talking about it and examining them and gets self cautious about them.

What do you start to notice?

His teeth.

Maybe, you start to think to yourself...oh yeah...I guess his teeth are kind of bad.

or, I think I actually prefer to have someone with straight teeth.

Whatever. You get the idea.

Something that you never even noticed before or maybe even liked, now has become something that you notice.

You look to see if they've tried to do something different, you notice now if they're whiter, or straighter. Shit you might even be counting them by now.

GIRLS. GIRLLLLLLLS DO THIS CRAP ALLLLL THE TIMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

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- I have an ugly stomach

- I hate this scar right here

- My ears are SO big

- My second toe is bigger than my big toe

- My face is fat

- My arms are so chubby

- I'm a bitch

- I'm spoiled

- I'm ugly

- My legs are seriously DISGUSTING.

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HOLY SHIT RIGHT?

These are all things i've heard girls say about themselves. IT'S HORRIBLE.

They pick at themselves over and over and over again and declare statements about themselves that aren't true.

They say it so much that people around them start to see those things and take notice of them.

Here's another example.

Picture a girl at a pool party that is very overweight, but she's happy. She's a GOOD TIME, she's nice, she's laughing, she compliments others, she isn't afraid to eat by the damn pool or get her hair wet.

COMPARED TO

A girl who is very overweight at a pool party who is covering up her stomach, complaining about the way she looks, refusing to eat, talking down on other girls because they are thinner than her.

Even though something may even be obvious, the less you point it out, the less people care!

And I don't mean, pointing out the obvious...

Like telling everyone a million times that you don't care about your weight or your look or your attitude or whatever. 

I mean, just not even bringing it up.

If you don't care, then don't talk about it.

Easy right?

Even if you DO CARE. Try just not complaining about it or pointing it out to people and see how you feel.

Not to necessarily hide your feelings but to build up confidence within yourself.

I've noticed this so much since I've moved to LA and it is seriously DRAINING.

Everyone has a complaint, no one is satisfied, girls are LITERALLY staring at themselves for SOOO long pointing out each and every thing.

It's unattractive you know?

At least if you don't like something then shut up about it, fix it, or get over it and move on.

I'm sorry if that's harsh but seriousllllly, no one cares as much as you do until you POINT IT OUT 5 MILLIONS TIMES.

Be confident. Be happy. Take what you have and roll with it. I'm sure there's THOUSANDS of girls out there who would kill to be you.

Okay the rant is over.

Love you guys. 

Talk tomorrow. 

FIND OUT WHY I PUT CUPPING IN THE GIRL TALK SECTION ;)

Alright you guys, I FINALLY WENT AND DID IT.

I don't have the worst back on the planet but maybe like the 8th worst. 

My grandma gave my mom scoliosis who then passed it along to me and my younger sister so that's been fun. I feel it everyday, in everything I do and it drives me f-innnggggggg insane, like you have no idea.

I feel it in my hips, in my ribs, in my shoulders, my knees, like it's horrible. Especially because I'm so in tune with my body it ESPECIALLY drives me nuts. I know I can't totally fix my spine but I'm playing around with different things to see how they at least help it.

I tried a bunch of different chiropractors but that was just way too intense and didn't really seem to be helping me personally.

I have been doing some aerial yoga which has been AMAZING (thanks class pass) but I have been dying to see how I would respond to things like acupuncture and cupping.

I still have to make an appointment for acupuncture but I finally went to my cupping appointment and it, was, fucking, magical.

Okay so WHY CUPPING, right?

Cupping is a traditional Chinese practice and I am SO into Japanese & Chinese medicine right now (I need to finish my China Study Book). I feel like they just really have their shit together and really sort of just get the whole health thing. 

So basically the whole process is about 20 minutes. You walk into a room that looks like it wants you to take a nap in it, get in a backless gown (not a cute one) and lie face down.

In my case, the doctor came in and immediately felt my shoulders and noticed that I hold all my stress in my traps. She lightly pressed her fingers down my spine and also noted that I am tight right in the middle of my back where emotions are held so she wanted to release those. 

Crazy right? I love this stuff.

So she put the cups all along my spine but it didn't hurt at all I promise. It felt a little awkward but it was also SUPER RELAXING.

She just had me lay there for 15 minutes before coming back in and taking them off. She asked me if I eat clean because my spots weren't as red as most so that was nice!

But as suspected, as you can tell in the picture, one of my most colorful circles was right at my left shoulder blade (I tense up there ALL THE TIME) and then surprisingly my other dark one was in my kidney area. She suggested more water so we'll see if it's lighter next time I go in, like next week!

So what is cupping doing exactly??

So when you get a massage you know how they also give you a glass of water after? That's because while they are hitting all those sore muscles, they are releasing toxins into your body that have been locked up in your muscles.

The water helps to flush them out through your urine BUT in cupping, instead of the toxins being pushed around within your body they are being pulled straight out from your skin. (Our skin is the largest organ we have for detoxing).

This is why the discoloration occurs and why some spots are darker than others. You still need to MAKE SURE  though that you drink plenty of water afterwards. 

During the cupping process, more blood begins to circulate through those toxic areas which is EPIC!! This releasing tightness, obviously improves circulation and then removes those toxins so it's all just wonderful.

Okay - why is this in the girl talk section?

Haha okay guys so I don't know if you've ever done or heard of cryotherapy before but I did it one time (you basically just stand in this freeeeezing ass tube for 2 minutes - it improves circulation and gives you energy...) and when I walked out of that thing I. was. horny. AF. haha too much?

When our circulation is sent into overdrive like that it's natural to feel that way, that's also why we get that rush of lasting energy.

So TODAY sure enough we leave the cupping appointment and I felt pretty good, but about 10 minutes later, SAME THING. haha It is INSANE. Like INSAAAAAAANE. 

Not to mention, I'm on like 5 hours of sleep and I feel like I'm now moving 8 million miles an hour, cleaning, cooking, organizing, my mind is clear, I'm energized but not in a jittery way.

I'm noticing even as I sit at this computer that my shoulders aren't trying to creep up by my ears like they normally do, it's glorioussssss.

Uhm so yeah, it was awesome, I already have another appointment set up and I can't wait to try acupuncture. 

Any thoughts? Leave them below!

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BUDGETING LIKE A BOSS

Who else thinks they're at this age where you feel like you should be 400 steps ahead in your career and then realize you had like 3 overdraft fees THIS MONTH.

Doessssn't exactly scream responsible. 

Money is a hard thing to have, ha! When I don't have it, I think of everything I desperately need to buy, like protein powder, and a new computer and how I STILL need to get coolant in my car. 

Then when I do have it, I think of everything that I THINK I need, like a haircut, a new dress because it's 50% off, and to redecorate my whole room with paint, plants and vogue posters from Etsy. 

(Let's just say I HATED accounting and my teacher looked like the bad guy in Spiderman so it was hard to concentrate. He was weirdly distracting, in kind of a scary, creepy way.)

My dad used to get on my ass about this stuff all the time and I remember I used to get so pissed because I would make up excuses like "I'm 17, I barely make any money what do you expect from me?!". 

But he made me realize (after years of trial and error), a couple things. 

1. If you owe someone money, you don't have money to spend. 

- Now when I was younger, like I said, that would drive me nuts! Mainly because I was horrible at it. But seriously, now how annoying is it when your friend says that they don't have any money so you buy them something with the understanding they "they'll pay you back", and then next thing you know "they still don't have money" but they just bought a whole new summer wardrobe.

- Now you're even more screwed than you were before because now you bought more stuff esentially spending money you don't have & you still have to pay your friend back. LOSING. 

2. PRIORITIZE

OMG I used to be the WORRRRRRRSSSSSSSSSSTTTTT AT THIS. I would get money and just BLOW it. Paycheck? Sweet. Say hi and BYE to the new shoes, 85 lunches, and trip to tahoe I'm about to trade you in for. See you again in 2 weeks. 

Like I said, while I didn't have money I would think of everything that I ever wanted. But back then, once I got the money, I would actually go buy all of those things. 

Then when my car would almost explode on the freeway with my 2 younger sisters in the car due to having LITERALLY no oil in it AND I had to call my dad for help (this actually happened), he shows up wanting to actually hit me with his truck and wonder how I managed ONCE AGAIN to not get the $40.00, 3,000 mile, must have, oil change that he always told me to get. 

See? Priorities. 

He told me, "If you're car is filled up with gas, up to date on all it's maintenance, you don't have any outstanding bills, you don't have any debt, you don't owe anybody and money, AND you put some away in savings, THEN, and ONLY then, do you find out if you have money left over for spending money. If the answer is no, then sucks to be you."

Haha, so in other words from ages like 17-23 it pretty much "sucked to be me" because I didn't have jack for spending.

(I'm not sure if that's what he said verbatim but, it makes me laugh to think that he did. Sounds like him ;) )

So, here's how I started to make more money, build up a couple grand in my savings, and get my shit together. 

1. Be Honest With Yourself.

I remember when I really looked at my finances and I was SCARED. Haha like legit felt like I needed some white wine and a xanax before I could begin. I remember opening up my journal and writing down all my monthly bills + what I  ACTUALLY needed for gas and food per month. My total came out to $1, 596. So I realized that the absolute minimum I needed to aim for per month was 2,000 (which is 500 a week). 

My checks at the time were coming out anywhere from $800.00 - $1,100.00 every two weeks so I was barely hangin on there for a while.

2. Grow a Pair And Switch Things Up.

So I decided to start looking for a new job. At the time I was a hostess getting shit for tips and I knew that I needed to be at least serving if I wanted to make more money BUT I was scared to apply anywhere because I didn't have any serving experience, and I'm the WORST lier on the planet. 

I already knew I wouldn't be able to be that person who could lie to all these different companies and say that I had been a server for years so what did I do? 

I started applying to 5 star hotels, bougie lounges and upscale restaurants to be a server. 

A lot of places would tell me that they couldn't hire me as a server but that they would be more than happy to have me work the front. 

NOPE, NEXT.

I started sitting down in interviews telling these people that "I'm fully aware that no where on my resume does it say that I'm a server but the only reason that girl is capable of doing this job is because you guys have taught her how, and not me,"

And to my surprise, three different high end restaurants wanted to hire me as a server, they were willing to give me a chance. Crazy right?! Then boom, I got a job making more than what I needed per month.

3. Know where your money is going, and put it there. 

It's like having a planner, or a schedule for the day. If you write down what you need to do and when it needs to get done, then you make it happen. If you don't, then you wake up everyday without an agenda and feel like you have nothing to do and thennnn, nothing gets done.

What I did first, (since I was now getting all my tips from cash rather than paychecks) was every night that I got home I would take 20% of my cash and put it in a paper clip with a piece of paper that said SAVINGS.

Then I would take half of what was left and put it in the clip that said BILLS.

Then whatever was left over would be mine to spend. Which was like 5-20 dollars haha. BUT if I didn't do this, say I just got home and was too tired and kept the money in my wallet, then I would go out for a few coffee's, make some stops at Marshalls, buy way too many things at Trader Joes and then next thing you know, that money is lonnnnng gone.

Once I had a good size stack of money in the BILLS clip, I would start to section it off even further by clipping together money and writing PHONE BILL, CAR PAYMENT + INSURANCE, etc. 

Then I would realize how much money I had for rent. If I'm stable then cool! This doesn't mean that I get to take some extra money out of there for spending. This means that I have some bills for next month ready to be taken care of. 

If I was lacking on money for rent, then that means that that 5-20 dollars in spending money at the end of the night, unfortunately needs to go towards my bills. 

Make sense?

Any comments or suggestions? Leave them below!

MY EXPERIENCE WITH SWITCHING FROM THE PILL TO THE IUD...

OK. Lets just get right to it.

I used to do the depo shot and it completely messed up my cycle and it involved getting a shot in my ass every 3 months so I ditched that and moved to the pill. The pill was whatever but I seriously ALWAYS forgot. Like I would take 3 in a day. Then my cycle was obviously all messed up again and my mood was all overrrr the place.

I talked to my doctor and she said that the IUD might be a good option for me so I talked to some of my friends who has gotten it first and all the stories were pretty much horrid. 

Worst pain of their entire lives kind of horrid. BUT they said after a few months you're all good to go - like good to go for 5-10 freaking years depending on whether you get the copper one (non hormonal) or the Mirena which HAS hormones. 

I went in wanting the copper one because I didn't like the idea of adding hormones to my body but since I'm anemic the doc said I need to get the Morena. I talked to her though about the hormones and she said that the hormones are not released throughout your entire body, they are just released in the cervix and that's it.

I decided to move forward with it and went in for my appointment. So this is kinda gross but - she said to come in WHILE I was on my next cycle. Likeeee ew really? haha BUT her reasoning was that our cervix isn't as tight while we on our cycle so it would be easier to insert the IUD. so WHATEVER. 

So I go in, lay on the bed ASS NAKED super awkward and they TRY to put in this damn thing and seriously like we are just NOT meant to feel what I felt. I don't want to give you too many details but basically, she couldn't get it in because my cervix was still too tight.

I WAS PISSED.

I had to make ANOTHER EFFING DOCTORS APPOINTMENT, and to be even more honest I had taken 1/2 a xanex before I got there because I heard the stories of how bad it hurt and I needed a little help RELAXING.

Welp. My appointment got cut short obviously and then I was lazy AF for the rest of the day. 

Alright now pay attention. So doc gives me some pills before I leave and ALL SHE TELLS ME is " Here, take these pills about an hour before your next appointment. They're just going to help expand your cervix." THAT WAS IT. Okay cool whatever.

Couple weeks later, wake up yayyy I'm finally getting this birth control blah blah take my 2 pills and a few minutes later I just felt really relaxed. (Pills were called MISOPROSTOL btw). So I'm like coooool doctor totally feels me on the relaxation thing & this is gunna be a breeze.

HAHAHAH. no.

Probably 5 minutes after taking these pills, I felt a SUPER DEEP HORRIBLE pain what felt like 8 feet behind my belly button. I was curled up in a ball on my bed and COULD NOT MOVE. Best part? I had to drive 45 minutes to my appointment. I can't even explain how bad it hurt. I was walking to my car bent over, no one else could drive me so I was screwed and wanted to DIE.

Literally on the way out of my complex I went over 2 speed bumps and had to get out of the car because I felt like I was going to throw up. I stayed hunched over the entire way to the doctors office which took forever in LA traffic.

When I went in for the procedure the pain had finally subsided and you can imagine how scared I was for the actual insertion. (I'll take wine, Tequilla, & Xanax please thanks!)

But - the actual procedure was actually a breeze and took no more than 10 minutes total. 

So I don't know if the pain I felt on the way there compares to the pain you feel during insertion if your cervix isn't dialated but I would imagine it is. 

So the first week after I was on a light cycle for about 10 days. ANNOYING.

Then for the first three months I was getting my period just whenever my body felt like having one which seemed like twice a month. Also annoying. BUT, now I can honestly say that it is AMAZING not having to worry about taking the pill or scheduling doctors appointments AND my period actually stopped! I spot like once a month for 2-3 days MOST and thats it. 

Giving all my tampons to my roomate was prettttty sweet.

Have you guys had the IUD? What do you think?

xoxo CR

INDEPENDENCE, LOVING YOURSELF & KNOWING YOUR WORTH

So I know I'm a self-proclaimed health and fitness blog but something that some of you may not know about me is

1. I LOVE to Write

and

2. I love to observe.

I'm constantly observing situations and wondering why people are the way they are. I want to know everyone's story and UNDERSTAND them. So with that said, since I do so much observing, I've seen a lot of the same situations and HEARD a lot of the same stories over and over and over anddddd over again.

So today I want to break open this "girl talk" page with a reminder you that

You DO NOT need a guy in your life. PERIOD.

I hear sooo many girls say, "I'm just going to find a rich guy and marry him." I don't want to judge and also say that I flat out see it all the time too but, I wouldn't be surprised. Or "When I'm married THEN I'll be able to work towards my dreams." Orrr "I'm just going to wait for my future husband to buy that for me."

WRONGGGGGGG. INSERT BIG RED FLAG HERE.

Here's some more: "I need a boyfriend so that I'll work out." "I need a boyfriend so that I'll get my shit together." What? You DO NOT NEED a guy in your life to fix those things. If that's your thinking pattern then you probably also think that money is going to make you happy and that's just a crock of shit.

Sorry to come off so bluntly but I just want to scream it out to some girls sometimes! With anything in life you should ALWAYS do it for yourself first. For example, cleaning your house. You should want to live in a clean space that you're proud of. It shouldn't be a place that you just sleep at and then clean when someone is coming over.

Same thing with your body.

Run for you! Sweat for you! Get abs for you! Sure if you want to use the hot guy at the gym as your motivation that's awesome! But at the end of the day don't do it FOR HIM!

Because if your mind set is "I'm working out so that I can look good for so and so and finally get his attention..." then as soon as he blows you off, you completely lose any sense of purpose to go work out. 

I'm especially passionate about this topic when it comes to your DREAM. Your PASSION. Your life long goal. What if you get with this guy for his money, tell him your dreams, he helps you get everything set up, he gives you money, he gets you all the connections, and then he decides to leave you. BYE BYE everything you had hoped for.

Even if you get lucky enough that he leaves the business with you or in your name you still need to figure out how to run it. Something that you should have been doing all those years that you were just sitting around waiting for Mr Money to roll around. Now what?

Is this all making sense? 

I blog because I love it and I really love connecting with you guys. Yes, I have bigger dreams of what my blog will be and when I get there I will have the satisfaction of knowing that I got myself there and I will be aware of every single thing happening in my brand. I have already learned so much over this last year and I will continue to learn because I'm putting in the time.

As women I think it's EXTREMELY IMPORTANT to remember that we are our own boss and at the end of the day we need to be able to rely on ourselves and make ourselves happy.

If we look for that in someone else then we are leaving our success, our happiness, our health and whatever else up to someone else!! 

That is crazy to me!! And you might not even know who this person is yet! Like, WHAT???

You're with you 24/7 and you have the ability to become whatever you want! Just do that instead. Also, if a guy that you're with doesn't think your vision or your dream is one of the most attractive things about you then BYE! 

If you give up on what you're doing or what you want to be doing, FOR A GUY, I will personally find you and shake you ha. But seriously. If he doesn't like it then great, you don't care. You know why? Because YOU like it and that's all that matters.

Moral of the rant. Be you. Do you. Take chances and be scared. Don't wait. Please please please whatever you do don't wait. Do whatever it is that you want to try RIGHT NOW. Make sure you fail at it a few times so you can get it right. Be proud of what you're doing and most of all, be happy. Don't be the girl that has 20 pounds of jewelry on and the latest everything but can't tell you what her last accomplishment was.

Do you guys have any comments on this? Let me know below. 

Love you guys!! Make yourself proud.