I sat here for a few minutes trying to think of a better title for this but sometimes it’s best to keep it short and to the point.
I woke up today realizing JUST NOW that I let stress win for the last three days.
I feel like I am someone who is very aware. I’m always in tune with how I’m feeling whether it be physically, mentally or emotionally.
(Unless I’m getting ready to start my period then there’s like one day of complete mood swings and emotions that doesn’t really even get a second thought until like a week later).
But for some reason, over these last three days I HAVE BEEN DRAINED.
It was insane you guys, and I’m just so happy that I woke up today feeling like a new person. but i hadn’t been drinking or staying up late, I’m not sick, (I’m not pregnant for those of you who might be considering that haha), I didn’t have anything super crazy happen, and I’m not starting my period.
I WAS JUST EXHAUSTED. I was drained, tired, unmotivated, sad?, annoyed, pissy, and just wanted to sleep, BUT I COULDN’T EVEN DO THAT.
I went to go take a nap twice and just hit the point of ultimate relaxation but didn’t actually fall asleep.
Then I was getting even more annoyed at myself for being SO USELESS because I KNOW how much shit I need to get done.
It was a roller coaster of emotions to say the least and I didn’t know when it was going to end which was the worst part. I had to have 2 glasses of wine when I got home from work last night just to CHILL.
Anyway – I woke up this morning and told myself to PAUSE.
NO RUSHING OUT THE DOOR like I do EVERY MORNING.
Every single day I wake up and LITERALLY start thinking of my to-do list before I even open my eyes. Then I open up my phone and start looking at class schedules and look for the next available.
I’ll rush out to a class then hit up a coffee shop and do computer work for 2-3 hours (e-mails, blog work, planning, collaborations etc). And then my day goes on from there until I get ready for work at night.
Usually this is fine for me but it was almost like everything kind of caught up to me the other day and instead of listening to my body, I kept trying to push forward.
Then by noon when I would be getting home from working out and running errands, I would be EXHAUSTED.
I think what was also happening is that thing where you know you have like 38 million things to do and it’s so overwhelming that you can’t even begin.
I knew I needed to relax and reset so I handled this morning a little bit, okay A LOT differently.
I got up and cleaned up the house a little bit and anytime that my mind started thinking of the things I need to do or the person I need to get back to, I just took a deep breath and said “later.”
I don’t know where that came from but it seemed to get my mind off things. I don’t have any idea when later even is but I know it’s not NOW.
Then I got my lavender essential oils going, lit some candles, made a coconut bullet proof latte, opened a window and turned on some morning music.
AHHHHHHHHHHH. SO HAPPY.
And then I knew that to really have closure to that fucking stress manic mode, I needed to write about it.
I’ve been so distracted with other parts of ChelseyRoseHealth that I haven’t even been doing as much writing which is the one thing I love the most.
I don’t even know what I’m going to do after I finish this, and that makes me feel AMAZING.
Right now I think it’s important to focus on one thing at a time and FINISH it before moving on to the next thing.
If you guys have any other tips for me please leave them below! I would love to know what you guy’s do in times of stress!!
XX Love you guys!!